Resign?
I can't believe I get into this dilemma soon after the first post.
My current job has burned me out since the past year. It is intense, full of unreasonable deadlines, seniors (obviously, more than one) and some colleagues who are difficult to get along with. I always wish to quit at once if I am able to. But the fact is, I live in a rented flat and I enjoy having good meals and watching movies sometimes with my partner. We are also learning Japanese. Though not really luxury, it is still a life which some money is required to maintain.
I also keep pursuing new job for more than a year: numerous application letter and email, a couple of interviews and endless waiting - all become disappointments. Sometimes I hate myself. I just can't get myself out from all these.
Suddenly I received an interview call today. It is in the next month, where I will be tortured by deadlines and high-pressure work again. And the date of interview is making things difficult again: it collides with one of the events that I will be responsible for. Probably I will be working for 12 hours everyday, for a whole damn week. Either I stay with this shit, and give up my chance for quitting here, or quit without a guaranteed job.
In old Chinese culture there's a saying: you know when things don't belong to you. I think this is one of those situations. I probably won't quit for an interview, which also means that this job doesn't belong to me. I have contacted the counterpart for a change of interview date but things doesn't look good, and I am afraid even they offer another date, I still wouldn't make it. This job simply doesn't for me, and I know it.
Frustrated. I don't know when will all the things become better for me. I desperately need a new job and a new environment before I am totally ruined by my current job. I have tried for nearly 3 years, and things just doesn't work.
I need some luck to turn me around.